It has been one of those months – where something was blocking my ability to write my newsletter. Expectations? Resistance? I couldn’t force myself with the “shoulds” and “have-tos” – I should get this done, I have to send it out. They weren’t serving me anymore. I had no choice but to let go and see what unfolds.
My friend and amazing bodyworker, Tim Custis, says it quite succinctly: "Our pain and suffering does not come from letting go, it comes from holding on." I've been looking at what I'm holding onto in my body and my life, both of which are calling for release and transformation.
It's natural to be called to let go during autumn. It's the only thing to do when winter is approaching. Either you let go and prepare for the cold, or you cling to what is slipping away and end up miserable.
I am continually called to sit in the silence, attend to my body, listen to my guidance, create and write. But I hold onto doing things that I feel I “should” when the signs point to letting go. When I continue to cling, I suffer. When I accept and then release, the energy opens up again.
I tend to believe that once I let go, then it’s done – and I can finally move on again. But often, I recognize that I need to let go repeatedly. Over and over, I’m called on to let go. In fact, life is a string of little releases. We must exhale to be able to inhale again. So I have come to accept that letting go needs to be part of my daily life.
So, I'm listening to the call - once again - to let go. Next month, on December 13th, we'll have our final Awakening Heart Spiritual Community. This has been a delightful, inspiring year for me in leading such a heartfelt, passionate, authentic community. I now feel the call for some empty time and space to allow what is next to reveal itself. Join me in Palo Alto from 10-11:30am for spiritual community, closure, and diving into this month's theme, "Sound and Silence."
What are you being called to let go of? Don't feel bad if you have to let go again, and again, and again. It's part of life. We are in the continual process of letting go of what we cling to, in order to allow what wants to emerge to be born. The earth knows this so well, and sets the example for us to follow every autumn – allowing our rebirth in the spring.
Let me end with sharing a poem, written in the wake of the recent attacks in France:
White flower petals
Soothe the wounds of seasons past
I dream of peace now.